Saturday, November 7, 2009
Was really drowsy from the medication, could not wake up in time for BE. Went to school at 1 for math, wasnt a wasted trip cause we covered one whole topic and was quite productive. except that my limbs were shaking and there was not much energy, had to force myself to write, perhaps just the medication cus I was fine after awhile. Homed after and comp-ed. met the girls in the night, chilled at taka then to cine. darling2 came and we went to bukit merah for BKT. Then to west coast park before darling2 sent me home. Chilled awhile downstairs with nette too. I thought I was strong, but its harder than I thought. I have no one to fall back on. Every night I ponder if I made the right decision, thinking it was better for us. I was hard on you, I was selfish, but there's no other way out. You wanted 1, then 2, then 1 but none I could give you. My mind is in a total mess, the angel talks to me in the day, and the devil talks in the night. the angel forces me to remember the sweet memories while the devil plants hatred and anger and all the things you did. arghhh... please let me be busier with school at least it takes me off all these stupid emo shit thoughts.
i miss and hate you.