2.39am tonight. I just submitted my appeal to SIT.

Whats my future gonna be like? We pave our own roads but where do I begin? Each second is precious but am I wasting my time & life away? Like I've mention I have no aim in life, people ask me what do I see myself doing in the future, what do I want to do. Its not that I have not given it a thought but honestly, I really don't know.

What I do know is that given an opportunity, I will make the most out of it and I can make a name for myself in any given career. That I am certain and confident. So to me it doesn't matter which faculty I am in, as long as theres money, I want to be there.

Now the question is how do I get there?
And now torn between engineering and business courses. This is my last chance to be able to study engineering of something valuable and interesting. Many have told me its darn tough and I am scared. Have I gotten myself into some shit that would make me a laughing stock and for people to tell me "I told you so"? You know the first thing that comes to your mind whenever you are scared is to run? Run away, you will be free from all these problems. But can you run forever? No. I know that and its certainly not easy at all! And I am gonna push myself to the limit and see how far I can go. For at least I want to be able to say I have tried my best and not be angry at myself if I do fail.

I have to be more independent and decisive in my choices. Its the least I can do to prove that I've grown up. Blame no one too. Its all upon my shoulders.